‘The most valuable gift you can give yourself is time’.
Thats what I needed to do. I needed to give myself time to once again adapt and adjust to me. Figuring out who I am without the labels and attachment. I could only do so by reclaiming my time. Learning how to say no, learning how to be alone. Unlearning the negative words I spoke to myself. Realising my environment were no longer on egg shells. Exist loudly, exist proudly because when you suppress who you are you alternatively die.
As each session went by, I felt a weight lift off my shoulders. As I unpacked each trauma I shifted my perception. Clarity is better understanding of yourself. When you know certain triggers you can know how to train your reaction. When you know why you are triggered you get clarity and understanding of who you are and why.
This is not who you will always be and this is why you deserve your time. Its why you deserve to figure out your childhood passions, the things you loved before money was a concern.
My memories were clouded but as I released the bad I started to remember the good. I thought about how much I love dance. Music is the biggest healer, its a cross seller. For the first time in a decade I took a dance class @AtYourBeat I took myself to a spa, I went to eat by myself and wrote like my life depended on it. This was how I spent 2017 hence the gap in my blog. My healing was not dependant on others. It was about me wanting to get better, be better and gain a greater understanding…of myself. I finally gave myself the time I had been taught to give others. I finally began to respect what society had told me was not mine.
MUA Tesh Lewis
Hairstylist Rohmarra Kerr
Stylist Amie Wolfe
*Disclaimer: These posts were written last year (2017) Visuals shot (2018).